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I’m Never Gonna Grow Up

Get over it. I’m never gonna grow up. But my art and my eye will. I admit, I’m a bit of a perv. That’s no surprise to people who know me. I still have pervy adolescent thoughts and I love my basement full of toys.

But I realized a shift recently. Enough so that I felt compelled to write this. Let me preface this post with the fact that I LOVE glamour and erotic photography. The shape of a woman. The curves. The sensuality in a figure. I LOVE it. I always have. Always will.

But this shit is getting out of control!

I will admit, I didn’t get into photography back in the film days. I took photos, but I wasn’t a photographer. Never even considered being anything other than an architect and later a graphic designer. Now, with a camera being built into every single device we have, photos are everywhere. And for someone who is so stimulated by visuals, and recently considered making photography a profession, I feel like I have been on sexy overload for some years. I have liked and reposted more sets of titties and naked women than I care to admit.

For a while, photography was a creative sexual outlet. I imagined I could recreate fantasies through my photography. But I found out that the process is a tough one and — being somewhat socially awkward — is near impossible to coordinate to my liking.

So for a long time I’d pick up my camera, then put it down. Then tried it again, and got frustrated and put it down. I started to wonder how other photographers that shot what I wanted to shoot got to shoot what they shot? I mean, a lot of photographers that I am a fan of started shooting well after me.

Too many pairs of titties and too many asses all over the place.

Well, today, enough is enough… Too many pairs of titties and too many asses all over the place. I noticed a bit ago that I was passing up glamour photos and looking closer at the hybrid fashion/glamour photos. There is creativity and thought that go into the photos I am gravitating towards. I see creative lighting and atmospheric design and it gets me all geeky about the technical details. Goth and steampunk seem to be the main themes I’m drawn to at the moment, but I am sure I’ll discover more.

I was never really a fashion guy — okay, I’m lying — I have always been a closet admirer…

I am no longer chasing the super glamour photo. I am making a hard line in the sand that I want to stick to shooting cosplay glamour and goth/steampunk couture. I was never really a fashion guy — okay, I’m lying — I have always been a closet admirer, but never thought it was as sexy as glamour photography. I have learned. Now I think it’s time for me to get more creative with my shoots, and I believe I am going to pursue a more fashion-centric look to my work.

Khrist started pointing me in this direction and I think I’m going to go with it. She mentioned that I have a sexy, commercial look to my work. I kinda took offense when she said it. “How dare she call me commercial!” But then I listened and she told me that I can turn gritty and raw into pretty and commercial. I understood. I am not the moody lighting specialist that my friend and mentor Shane Evans is. I am not the glamour photographer that J. Alex or Charles Gardner are. I like all of their work. I admire these guy’s work ethics and consistency. But I have shot it and I don’t want to do it any more.

At first I wanted to shoot swimsuits and nudes. Now, gimme a cute model in a corset and bloomers… Then I wanted erotic, now I just want creative makeup and lacy lingerie. I spent my early photography years wanting to uncover models. Now I want to uncover the ways to spark eroticism with more clothes on. Don’t get me wrong, I am still going to shoot my boudoir shoots and try to book boudoir clients, but my personal work is going to be more costumed and designed. I’m excited and scared at the same time. This expands way beyond my own skills. I have a lot to learn, but I believe this is where my style is going to take me.

My art is going to mature a bit. My visual design will grow. OH! Don’t get me wrong, I still wanna see some nipples, but maybe “less is more” was a credo that doesn’t suit me any more. Perhaps “more is more.” Only growth will reveal the path.